Cycle Of Misses

How do you feel when somebody says those three words to you? Not talking about "I Love You", or "I want you". I'm talking about " I miss you". Now the first question you might have is; Who is the person that's saying it to me?  Let's just say anybody, whether it be a friend, loved one, spouse, your child, whomever you wanna choose. From the things I just listed, the general feeling is a good feeling because it's somebody you care about that misses you. Now you're probably asking, "Okay...so what is this blog about this time?" Glad you asked, and I'll dive straight into it.

I feel like those three words get tossed around a lot, and those three words have lost the power that they once held. Usually the cases happen between females or sometimes when a female says that to a male. But mostly it's females that say this a lot more than males.

*Quick sidenote* This is mainly from my personal experience and eyes from girls doing this to me. Keep that in mind. But I kept it to people just in case females can relate to this blog too.*

Normally I don't have a problem with somebody saying they miss me, I think it's cool. BUT what I DO have a problem with is somebody that says they miss me, and they initiate this thing I like to call the "cycle of misses". The cycle of misses is what I refer to as somebody who says they miss you because of certain situations that either happened to them or something they are going through, NOT because they really do miss you. You can probably relate to some of these situations because you know people that actually do this, or have done this to you.

The first cycle is those people that say they miss you, but they really don't. They just say it to say it, and pretty much want some attention from somebody (you) and they hope you'll give them some. These can also be classified as those types of people that always wanna say "Hey let's hangout sometime!" but they never plan anything or even attempt to wanna hang out with you. Or better yet, the people that say "Here's my number text me sometime!" and you end up texting them but they don't text back or rarely text back. You never hear from them again until they pop up again.

Second cycle comes from something I'm starting to see quite often nowadays. This happens when somebody goes through a bad breakup or ending a relationship, and then all of a sudden they come outta the blue saying they miss you and now for those few moments you are the best person ever and they wanna talk to you all day, everyday. This leads to them flirting a lot with you and could also lead into the first situation. They pretty much want you to fill up the "rebound" or the "picker-upper" role so that they feel good enough to go out and get another boyfriend/girlfriend. Then you never hear from them until they break up with somebody else.

The third and final cycle usually comes from a former friend or somebody you were once cool with. This usually happens either when you two have beef with each other, or they did something wrong to you then wanna say  "I'm sorry, I miss you" or some kind of variation of it. The only different thing about this compared to the other two cycles is that in this one you have the choice whether or not to keep in contact with these people or not.

Personally, I don't say I miss you unless I really mean it. Even when I do, I say it to two types of people. Those two types are family, and a loved one. It doesn't feel right to say I miss you when I don't talk to you at all or not that much. That's just me though, and my opinion. Whatever the case is, saying " I Miss You" is definitely lost it's power and it's edge that it was supposed to originally have.

The Decision: Part 4

It's been a while since I last posted, and I know I said that I would be more frequent with my posts, but that hasn't happened and I apologize, but I figured I'd update you on what's happened since Part 3. This blog post is more like an Update than a blog post.

Surprisingly enough, a lot has happened since August (according to my last post). Things such as :

In terms of the new: 

- Recruiter

- Place for tech school

- Friends

- Group

- People

In terms of the old: 

- Ship out date

- Same ol Belleville

- Still no job but at this point it really doesn't matter

The old category is pretty self explanatory, so I'm gonna focus on the new because I think that's way more important right now.

So where to begin? Might as well start from the top. Some will be short, some might have a little more detail.

Recruiter

First question that might pop up as you're reading this, "You got a new recruiter?? How and Why?"

Well, here's what happened. Before I start this topic, shout out to the person who was formally known as Ssgt. Ferris. Okay, had to get that out of the way.

This happened around mid to late September, and I received a phone called from the Technical Sergeant asking me to meet with him. I thought I was going to be in trouble because that was the first time I ever got called by somebody that high rank, except the time I was called by the Commander of MEPS. When I met him, he told me that Ferris was no longer a Ssgt but instead her title is now Miss or Ms. Ferris  (forgot if she was married or not). Apparently, her and a few other recruiters got in trouble for something they did, and they all got discharged from the military because of that. I wasn't able to get specifics on what exactly they did, but it was bad enough to the point where they got discharged. Haven't had contact with Ferris except a text she sent out saying "I'll be in contact." I guess moral of that story was, you can't get away with anything when it comes to the military.

Place for Tech School

Found out that the Tech School I'm going to after I graduate from BMT is Goodfellow AFB in San Angelo Texas. Pretty excited for it, although I'm curious as to why my tech school is really short (93 days). In any case, I'll make the very best of the time I have there.

Friends/Group

I know this sounds kinda cliche but initially I didnt know if I was gonna make too many friends heading into BMT, because I didnt know anybody else from my area that was going into BMT around the same time as me but thanks to my curiosity, I managed to find a group on Facebook that had a group for people leaving for BMT in the month of November. I met a lot of very cool and interesting people, and some of these people turned out to be my best friends going into BMT. Shout outs to the Mindreaders if you're reading this! Joining the Facebook group made things ten times more easier for me, because it's a good feeling knowing that people are in the same boat with you when they leave for BMT.

Conclusions 


Overall I gotta admit I was definitely nervous, scared, uncertain about going into BMT, but now that I met these people, BMT just seems like a breeze to me, because I know what to expect, and I know I will have friends while I'm down there, which always is a good feeling when you're going through something new and major in your life.

I only have 1 month and a few days before I'm officially shipped out to BMT, and I can't believe how time is flying by so quickly. I'm just ready for this big change in life, ready for new life experiences, and ready to be part of the United States Air Force.

The Decision: Part 3

I recently thought about some things that I just thought that relates to my version of "The Decision", so here goes.

First things first, I do have my ship-out date for my faithful readers. It's Nov 29, 2011.

My literal first reaction was, "Finally, I'm going to be out of here soon!" and I was really excited. I can't wait to "take my talents to" Lackland AFB or San Antonio Texas, and join the United States Air Force.

Then after talking with some people, I realized that November wasn't as far away as I had originally thought, it's actually 3 months away according to this blog. Most reactions I got were pretty much what I expected. I got a lot of sad responses, some good responses, a couple of mad responses for some odd reason, but all of them were happy for me, and wished me luck. So if you're reading this, and you wished me luck, thank you!

After a while, another thought popped into my head. The thought that " I wont be going to school at the same time anymore". For about 19 years of my life, I have always went to school in August/September, and that hasn't changed..until this year. 

Normally around this time, I'd be talking with my friends about this upcoming school year. Things like what classes we got, what new things we were going to try out as far as student activities, the "New" more "Study Harder" versions of ourselves, which we end up sometimes not doing. We'd also be talkin about how much our books cost this semester, or how boring or great our summer was. It'd just be like any other school year.

But like I said before, not this year.

This year, I'm joining the Air Force, meaning I won't be going to school like everyone else. Instead I'll be training, working out, attending DEP Commander Calls, all up to the day in which I leave, while everyone else is heading to school, and doing all of that school stuff.

Is it weird? Hell yeah. Will I ever go to school again? Yeah I will once basic training is done and over with. 

I'll still get that "college experience" but it'd be a really different experience, Air Force style. I heard it aint too bad, just gotta focus, and do what you're supposed to do. Either way, I'll get my degree one way or another.

In the meantime, all I can do is just be patient. These months will fly by quickly and training will be done, and I'll be back in school once again. Maybe it's a good thing that I don't start school normally this year, who knows. 

We'll see the end result once it comes around. I'm ready for whatever comes my way.

If Your Out There..

iif you're out there.

Hey you

Girl

yeah you

with the nice eyes and the pretty smile

with the voice that sounds like heaven

with the body of a goddess

with the personality of an angel

My name's Eric, pleased to meet you.

i always asked myself and others have asked me countless times

what kind of girl is my dream girl

well to me it seems like you fit the bill

haha don't be shy, take a chance

life's all about living it up like it's your last day to live

so why not live it to the fullest extent

take a chance with me, you wont regret it..promise

but i must warn you, im a little weird.

not weird as in bad, but weird as in different

different is good nowadays, from what girls have told me.

so i guess im doing something right..

well i take that back, because if i was doing something right

i wouldn't be talking to you in the first place

i guess you can say, i've had a streak of bad luck when it comes to girls,

maybe it's a sign, or maybe it's just the way it is sometimes.

but the weird thing is..girls have told me im the perfect guy

not bragging, or anything, but it's true, ask around

and i always say thank you and be polite, but deep down, i wonder how it is possible

me: Eric Brandon Smith..is such a perfect guy but yet hasn't found his perfect girl.

you say don't worry about it?

well it doesn't necessarily worry me, but it kinda troubles me.

reason being that finding a perfect girl, is hard and painful, and i don't like the painful part.

then again who does? haha.

personally i don't care about the race, or what color your hair is, or which stereotype you fit in.

just as long as i feel comfortable around you

and the ability to feel like your style and personality compliment mine

and the ability to be in sync with one another, if you know what i mean.

you know what else would be wonderful?

if you said with confidence, "I could be the perfect girl for you." and mean it

when i say "you think you are the perfect girl for me?"

but not overconfidence

trust me i can tell when a girl is being overconfident.

but back to the main question i get asked.

what about the body you ask?

well honestly as long as i think it's reasonable, it's fine with me.

you dont have to be extra skinny, or super buff

you can have just a little bit of that extra baggage that you call "fat"

that works fine.

oh by the way, you have real nice eyes, did i mention that..

the way they shine through the light is amazing..

i kind of get lost in them...

they probably shine in the moonlight, when it hits them.

and your smile, it's so beautiful

i could look at it all day

it's very nice and warming.

haha, someone's blushing

but hey it's the truth

i call it like i see it

maybe that's being blunt and forward, but i wouldnt have said it if i didnt mean it

you're probably thinking, what a first impression, are you just trying to get in my pants?

No im not, that's the last thing that comes to my mind when making first impression, that stuff can come down the road once the relationship is established.

So you think im really outgoing and spontaneous..

well i can be

but in honesty im just introverted and shy

but being outgoing and extroverted sometimes isn't so bad

when i can feel like i can act like my true self.

at least that's what put me in this situation between me and you.

you wanna know more about me?

well.. im definitely curious for starters

curiosity killed the cat some say, but then again, i don't own a cat, so curiosity cant kill it or me.

Favorite color? would have to say green

emerald green if you wanna get into specifics

Favorite food? Homemade tacos

Favorite type of music? Neo- Soul. It's like smooth R&B and Jazz combined with singing of course.

it's a good type of genre, try it sometime.

I also love video games

Depending on the game, i think i could probably take you on. I like a challenge.

If you win, i wouldn't care, just means that i actually have someone who can give me a good time.

Favorite thing to do at night is to look out the window, and look at the stars, and think about everything that's happening in my life, from past to present, and sometimes even the future.

To me, the future is all in my active imagination, and something im definitely curious about.

Music? i love music, it's my thing. I play the flute, and i learned a little bit of piano. And it's been with me officially since 6th grade.

it's the thing that i turn to to relax or to play with how im feeling that day.

So now you're wondering, why me, why did you choose me?

it wasn't because of my mind, or my body

more because my heart said you were the right one

it definitely feels different..not like the feelings in the past

and the weird thing is..i kinda like it.

but i wanna warn you

i don't have time for games.

if you're gonna break my heart in the future

or have a shady past.

you might as well come clean about it now

because i've been through too many heartbreaks

too many sad endings

too many crushed feelings

to go through another one

not sure if i can take another one to be quite honest..

definitely isn't healthy for me one bit

but hey if you wanna take a chance on me, then how could i say no

you might actually be the soul mate i've been searching for my whole lifetime

if your heart's in it, mine is too.

looks like we got the chemistry part down

and it looks like we are definitely physically attracted to each other

and personality wise, i could say we are definitely in sync.

but are you sure?

you sure you can handle "the perfect guy" if you're not used to it.

a guy who can be a reckless, who doesn't like being controlled by a person who loves being in control

a rebel against authority in other words

a guy who's weird and different in a good way

a guy who'll give up being single and all the fun things that come with it,

just to have a very good and long relationship

a guy who'll treat you right, with respect, and like a queen, the way girls should be treated.

if so..then strap yourself in, you're in for a ride of a lifetime

you teach me and i'll teach you

and in the process of getting to know each other

we could actually dare i say...fall in love?

which i have truly haven't really felt what it means to be in "real love"

sounds dangerous and risky right?

well if your good luck syncs with my good luck

then we shouldn't have to worry about anything

no matter what, we would be inseparable

kind of like an item..

that would make me happy trust me.

everyone would think we would make the best couple in the world

and i would say i couldn't agree more, and look at you and smile.

So let's do it and get it started shall we?

and create the harmonious bliss known as true love.

This is what i would say to you, if i knew who you were..

if i had some indication or some light or a sign

something to guide me.

As im sitting here writing this note i think,

is the perfect girl someone i already met?

someone in my past?

or is the girl the one reading this note

whoever it may be, I'll tell you one thing.

I'm ready to know who you are, so come introduce yourself, don't be shy.

seriously don't be shy, i won't bite...promise

Give me your heart, and i'll give you mine.

If and only if..

If You're Out There..

The Phoenix Doesn't Wanna Settle

Relationships, settling down, tied down and me in the same sentence?? I don't think so.

Recently, I've been encountering a lot of chicks that I talk to that want to be in a relationship. Not talking relationship as in just kick it, chill, hangout friends. I'm talking serious relationship, dating, settling down kind of relationship.

Now don't get me wrong, I don't mind if a chick wants to date me. However, at this stage of my life, I do not want to settle down right now, I see no point in doing so. What happened today pretty much solidified my choice in being single for a long ass time. I'll just break it down as simple as I can.

I felt suffocated talking to these girls. Like these chicks were aggressive as hell in trying to get me to be in a relationship with them. Now I like an aggressive girl that knows she wants me and goes after it, BUT, I DO NOT LIKE, a girl that always wanna text, or instant message, or call every 5 minutes asking what you doing or are you still there, that just annoys me really bad. It was just the way THOSE chicks did it that irritated me to hell and back, but for some reason when another girl did it, I didn't get bothered by it. I guess it depends on the girl. I just felt like i didn't have any space, they just wanted to be with me all the time, talk to me all the time, just felt like I had no type of privacy and I couldn't do anything.

Like I said before, at this stage of my life I don't wanna settle or be in a relationship right now. First off, I am going to be leaving for the Air Force soon, meaning there would be absolutely no point in trying to squeeze a quick relationship that's only gonna last for a few weeks and that's it. To me that's just not a real relationship. A relationship is something that at least lasts at a minimum of one MONTH, dating lasts only one WEEK. Huge difference there, dont you think?

Secondly, I'm only 19 years old according to my birthday of December 3rd, 1991 and according to the date this blog post is created. *8/4/2011* I got a lot to live, and last time I checked, 19 years old is still pretty young. I got plenty of time to settle down in the years to come, and I probably will settle down once I get myself all good. My auntie said it best, "right now you should focus on you and the Air Force" and I definitely agree with her. I feel like once I accomplish that, everything will fall into place, and everything will work itself out.

Now that I think about it, I really haven't experienced life like I should. I didn't get the full college experience that I thought I was going to get from going to school, and haven't got to really live on my own too much (One year at Western Michigan, doesn't really count for too much nowadays). I just feel like it's a world of opportunities and experiences that are waiting for me, and settling down and being in a relationship right now seems like the worst thing I can do before I leave for Basic Training.

In any case, the Phoenix doesn't wanna settle down..until later on in my life.

The "Market"

I'll explain this like it's a game. (Even though it IS kinda like one if you really take the time to think about it).

*Sidenote - When i say the word "buy" when it comes to this whole market stuff it means in a relationship* 

Eventually as humans and as a teenagers and young adults, the idea of companionship comes around. The thought of sharing your world with another person, being together in a relationship, romance, the happily ever after that everyone wants creeps into your mind. Before you know it, your shopping in this thing called a "market" (or store, whichever you prefer). You have your list on what you want out of your companion. Things such as hair color, body type, political views, tastes in music, talents, philosophies, goals in life, those kinds of things (there's probably more to this list but I'm not going to put them down) you know what I'm talking about. 

In theory, the goal of this "Market" is to basically get the best product available that you can find and establish a relationship with it for a set amount of time (DISCLAIMER: Time varies with the product you choose). Now for some people, they only go to the market at least a few times (like two or three) and don't come back. For others, they are frequent shoppers at this market racking up those reward points because they buy and run through products so quickly, it'd make your head spin.

If the thought of "what kind of person are you in this market game" came across your mind, i'll tell you.

For me, I am one of those people that does go to the market occasionally, BUT, I just browse. I see what the products themselves offer, compare to them to the "list" that I have, and if it matches, I may or may not put it in the cart. Right now though, nothing's going into the cart.

As we all know, every product is different, no two are the same. All have more costs and benefits. Some products are deceiving, some are too good to be true, some have malfunctions that we can't deal with, some just look so dam attractive to buy that you have to just get it now but upon further investigation (or maybe experience with that product) it wasn't worth getting it at all.

In any case we all go to the "Market" eventually at some point of time because we have that need of companionship. Just be careful of what products you choose, as they would say, buyer beware.

Once you find the product that makes you the happiest, and would stick with for a lifetime, you know you did something right.

Happy Shopping,

Phoenix

The Decision: Part 2

It's been a while since I last posted, I know my viewers and readers were waiting to see when my next post was gonna be, and well here it is.

First things first! I have officially sworn into the United States Air Force as of July 19, 2011! Okay..continuing blog.

The reason I haven't posted anything was because i wanted to wait until after I swore in to the Air Force to create a new blog. Makes sense right?...considering this is Part 2 of "The Decision". Now believe it or not, in reality it was only a few of months for this processing to finally come to an end (April 2011 - July 19 2011), but to me it seemed like an eternity. I'll tell you what happened that caused me to take forever to swear in to the Air Force.

The main thing that really held things up was the fact of the DEP discharge I had to get from the Marine Corps. Even after I got a letter from the Commander saying I was discharged and had no official obligations or affiliations with the Marines, and even after i was "discharged from my recruiter",  it was the same damn recruiter who was holding on to my information and wouldn't sign it to transfer my information to the Air Force. It's messed up and honestly karma button is gonna be functioning for him, but I won't know when that would be considering I really don't care about the guy too much.

I know it's a recruiters job to be all buddy-buddy with you, so it makes it seem like everything's all sunshine and rainbows when you join a military branch, but my question to him would be, why couldn't you be real with me and the information you were giving me. Instead of trying to pressure me into swearing in and recruiting, you should have (in my opinion of course) just said, "Look, here's what you are doing, here's what we do and what your getting into etc etc". I would've been okay with that, but life is life and your gonna encounter people like that.

In any case, there were a couple lessons learned from this process:
First lesson is if your gonna join the military, KNOW which branch you wanna join before you go to MEPS, don't be wishy-washy on deciding between branches. Second lesson, if your going to DEP discharge from the Marines, prepare for a long ass process, because some Marine recruiters will actually hold you up from joining another branch (it's a fact from personal experience, and from researching these kinds of things).

If you're in that position and you're really determined to get out of a military branch and things seems like they are going really slow, you are more than welcome to call your local MEPS and talk to the operations or the higher ups of the specific branch. That's what they are there for, to help you out in case you are having any problems. That's what I did to get out of the Marines. I talked to the operations officer after talking to the Commander of MEPS, and the operations officer did in fact help me out, and got my information processed to the Air Force.

In any case, after filling out so much paperwork and signing so many things that made my head wanna explode and waiting an eternity for this process to end, it finally came to an end. I finally raised my right hand, said the Oath of Enlistment, and was officially a member of the worlds greatest air power, the United States Air Force.

They said the journey is more fun than the destination, or something like that. That's a bunch of bull, in this case anyways.

So what's next? When are you leaving? Are you excited?? When's the next blog post??

These are probably questions your asking now as your reading this, and I'll answer those in order.

So what's next?


Right now the next thing for me to do is to prepare myself for basic training. Like I said in the previous "Decision" post, basic training is in Lackland, Texas (or San Antonio if you want a city). Whether it's working out, researching jobs, learning insignia and  rank, these are the things I need to do as basic training comes around the corner.


Besides keeping up with this blog and creating new blog posts, I will take my talents to YouTube and create videos about the Air Force and my experiences. Those videos are a future project and I will let you readers know when my videos are coming out. In the meantime I'm sticking to blogs for right now.

Also, in the meantime, i'll just be chillin out with friends and family and spending time with them

When are you leaving?


The goal is for August or September.. one of those two months are okay with me.

Are You Excited?


You dam right im excited! You would be too if you just swore in today and were in my position.

When's the next blog post?

It will be pretty soon honestly, I wont hang you readers out to dry like I did last time! I promise =)  I'll actually be blogging a LOT more frequently nowadays. Plus I got some interesting topics that I've gotten from just taking a break from blogging. I'm always searching for topics that I can blog about too, so if you feel like you have a topic that you would like to see me talk about, contact me via on here on on twitter @TheBlackPH03N1X.

Until then my readers, god bless, and I'm ghost. Stay tuned for "The Decision: Part 3" and other various topics.

Summer Madness Rant

Feel like ranting on about this summer so far right now..so here goes.

Another day another dawn as P.Diddy would say. Another day that floats on by that nothing significant happens, nobody doing anything, no town events, no money to really go anywhere, no type of job, nothing of that sort. This summer was supposed to be THAT Summer, where everything was poppin off and bangin, where i wouldn't sit at home bored all the time, playing xbox 360 all day, waiting on some excitement to come around my way. There's always the saying, if you want to see change, make it happen, well right now that statements a bunch of bull. Even if i were to do something, there's nothing really TO do. Like i said before, no money and no job = nothing to really do. I also remind you, it's Belleville..(see earlier blogs about it) or you can take my word for it if you A) live in Belleville or B) if you don't believe me, your gonna have to trust me on this one.

Still waiting on that recruiter to stop freakin rescheduling me and actually get a time slot that i can actually come in and fill out my paperwork so that i can enlist. I wanna get this stuff over with got dammit! Still waiting for another part of the military to send my medical and physical files to the Air Force, and hopefully that goes well, because if not i'll just end up calling the commander of the MEPS again, and we will see what happens from there. I know it may sound selfish and all, but I want everything to go my way and if it doesn't i'll do something to make it go my way. it's a messed up way of thinking but nowadays you can't expect everything to be all sunshine and rainbows and let things happen. People may get pissed and all that junk but hey, i gotta make it do what it do and i gotta look out for number one (myself). But enough complaining and whining because that's what it seems like im doing. 

They always say the best things are worth waiting for, but the real question is how long do I have to wait for them before i get frustrated and say f*** it. Now the real obvious yet ignorant answer would be to say "As long as it takes", and had you said that to me, i would've gave you this face -________-  and would tell you to go sit on the train tracks and put your life into perspective and not to move when the train comes around. And i would've said it with a smile =D

Maybe im just an impatient type of person (which i totally am) when it comes to things i want or things i wanna do. But that can't be helped, that's just who i am as a person, as a Sagittarius, as an african american in this crazy ass society we live in. 

It is what it is, easy come and easy go, but when you want something, shouldn't you take action? Should you not grab the goal by the reigns and say this is my life, and this is the direction i want to go in? Should you either go in guns blazing no holds barred attitude, or should you tactically plan this out step by step slowly, cool, calm and collected..whichever works for you i guess, I can't tell you what to do because im not you, and your not me, and i don't want you to be me and i don't wanna be you (no offense). but i will tell you this..i need a few things to happen while this summer is dragging on:

a) need a job

b) need this military processing crap to speed the f*** up (decided not to spell out the word in this blog)

c) need some excitement this summer

d) need michigan to figure out what time of the year it is because this is looking like a frozen summer out here!

That's all..rant's done..im ghost.

Nostalgic Memories of High School and Music

So recently, I went to the last concert of the year for my high school's Symphony Band. Gotta say it kinda nostalgic being in the high school building  and seeing the remains of the old building before they finish building the new site. The hallways, vending machines, the gym, some of the classrooms, just brought back a whole bunch of memories. The classroom that brought back the most memories had to be the band room. Too many fun times in the band room to put on this blog but let's just say memories were just flowing back in my mind.

 I remember my time in Symphony band, back when I was a senior in high school. Symphony band was fun as hell to be in, had  the best kids in the band program in one entire band. I remember thinking to myself, this is it, this is what i've been waiting to get in my entire high school band career (it took three times for me to get in but let's skip that point). But i gotta say being in symphony band was definitely a great experience, playing some awesome music, meeting famous band directors, traveling to Indianapolis, playing our concerts, all of that was worth it. I gotta say going to Indianapolis was probably the greatest highlight of that year.Got to see some amazing bands play, got to meet some other people from other bands, and of course meeting some other girls, aw yeah..haha, but on a serious note though they were pretty cool. One thing i'll never forget was going to the Indianapolis Colts stadium and going to this party they were throwing for us inside of the stadium. It was like your typical kind of party; music, dancing/grinding, food and drinks (non-alcoholic of course), and good times and good people. I remember getting asked so many times "where are you from?" and by me saying Michigan, i got shocked responses and more questions/comments like "Oh your from michigan, that's really cool!" or "What's it like in Michigan?". I even got asked one time if i was single by a very cute girl, but at the time i was taken so i said no, but she was very cool about it and we danced for a couple of songs and talked for a little while. I remember that there were people from Texas and I think there were some people from Atlanta and other places.

I also remember playing the concert. I was so nervous, just thinking to myself: "Don't mess up your notes, don't mess up a rhythm or come in at the wrong time...". Luckily I didn't mess up, and the band played really well. One thing i wished could've happened was the fact that i wanted to play Apollo Unleashed for Indy, but another band already took it. Overall the Indy trip was fun and I'm glad we went.

Which brings me to this concert I recently saw. The Symphony Band this year played really well, Blue Shades was probably the best song they played out of the three. I was just sitting in the audience thinking, I wish I could go on the stage and play in the band one last time for fun. One last time, I wanna sightread music, listen for pitch and tone, play with the flute section once again and be a part of the band. One last time i wanna rock Apollo Unleashed's brains out. It's definitely a different feeling when you're used to playing in the band and performing concerts for a good part of your life and sitting in the audience listening to the music and not being able to play in the band. But my time's passed, and I'll just let the people in the Symphony Band play their music. Looking back on it, being a part of the band program was probably one of the best decisions of my lifetime, hands down. That's where i met a lot of people who are important to me, and having priceless memories and friends to always keep in my mind.

Music will forever be a part of me, no matter what happens to me, so for now all i can say is, play on Symphony Band, play on.

Dont You Hate It When...

Just decided to write a quick blog about stuff that you come across in your everyday life, so let's get it:

*DISCLAIMER: This is random so be prepared for anything. and when you read a point, just begin by saying "Don't You Hate It When"

Dont You Hate it When:

- You taste spoiled milk when you make a big bowl of your favorite cereal and end up wasting it

- You make plans, and somehow, someway they fall through because of some bs reason

- You lose that HUGE bet that you was 99.9% sure you were gonna win

- You live in michigan and deal with its random weather system

- You gotta pay $4.15 (Last time i checked on May 7, 2011) for a gallon of gas when your about to run out of gas

- You get the red rings of death on your xbox

- You want your loved ones to recognize somethings wrong and they aren't aware that something IS ACTUALLY wrong

- You get pet hair all over your brand new clothes that you just bought from the mall

- You're at the club and you gotta be the one out of your group of friends to walk on the dance floor and be the "initiator" for the dancing and fun.

- Adding to the previous one, because your friends will follow you around acting like they can't do it themselves.

- You realize the club really isn't as cracked up to be like TV shows make them to be.

- You meet someone really attractive, good face, body, the whole package, and their breath is REALLY BAD.

- You run out of toilet paper when you use the bathroom and have to go get another roll.

- Adding to the previous one except with paper towel, when you got a mess on your hands.

- You have to stand behind the old lady at the grocery store with 10 million items and then decides to write a check

- You live in Belleville and there's nothing to do.. oh wait..that's pretty dam often.

- Your sports team gets cheated out of a game.

- You and your loved ones know you are both wrong and nobody wants to admit it.

- Your beasting  it in black ops and lose the match because almost all of your teammates are ASS.

- You pull up in the driveway getting ready to get out of the car, and your favorite song comes on

- There's roadkill on almost single road you go on.

- You attract mosquitoes in the summertime and they follow you no matter where you go.

- You get cold weather in April, and it's supposed to be "Spring".

- You get tongue tied when you arguing/ trying to make a point to someone and your point loses it's affect

- You laugh so hard that your stomach hurts really bad

- You get the runs

- Your gonna see an awesome movie at midnight, and when you get to the front of the line and the tickets sell out just as you were going to buy your ticket.

- You see some chick post some super dramatic status on almost every status she post just to be an attention whore or a person that wants everyone to feel sorry for.

- You Lost The Game

- Everytime YOUR TAKEN, all the attractive people ARE SINGLE and everytime YOUR SINGLE the attractive people ARE TAKEN.

-You are in a relationship that you shouldn't be in.

- Your reading this long blog about random things..oh wait.. lol.

If you agree with any of the points feel free to leave a comment in the section below! Feedback is appreciated!

The Decision: Part 1

Well..here I am again, blogging..Im honestly just writing down everything that comes to mind right now, but lets get to the main point shall we?

So the decision to join the military..how did that happen?

Well here's some reasons worth thinking about, some reasons i'll explain in more detail others i wont because they should be self explanatory, so here goes:

Possible Questions and My Reasons why I joined the Military in general:

Q) Eric, why do you wanna join the military all of a sudden? What's your reasons?

1) One of the main reasons why i joined the military in the first place was because I wanted something new in life. It makes sense if your looking at it from my perspective. I've been in belleville since i was in 3rd grade and it's pretty much the same thing nowadays compared to when i moved in. The only thing that really changed was the number of buildings and different "landscape" if you wanna call it that. Main point, it's belleville, nothing to do, same old ish, different day. the only fun thing to do sadly enough is go to walmart and meijer and clown around in there, and even that gets boring after the first 30 minutes after you run out of ideas on what to do in there or if you get kicked out.

In the military, you travel across the United States and sometimes overseas, so life's never really dull. Yeah it may have some dull days here and there, but your doing something that you love or are interested in that not only helps you but also helps the government and the United States of America, so you really won't be bored or the job may not be dull at all. Adding to that, I'm a guy that gets bored pretty easily, I found that out about myself, so I need something new and exciting that keeps me on my toes and keeps my attention and doing these kinds of things will be fun to me.

2) I'm a guy that loves to travel a lot, and like I said before, the military has you traveling from place to place, so there's always some kind of adventure to be had. It may not happen every single day, but im pretty sure i'll be traveling across the US a few times before my contract is up.

3) The benefits outweigh the cost. The military pays for your schooling (or a good amount of it depending on where you go). They also pay for your medical, dental, health, food, all that stuff, so you don't have to really pay for anything other than if you go outside of the base and go shopping or go to a restaurant but even if you do, you'll have the money to pay for it because you get PAID in the military. That being said, for me, i wouldn't want my mom and dad paying money out of their pocket because something goes wrong with me, even though we got some okay insurance, i rather have everything paid for and for them not to pay a cent and not have to worry about me, plus its kinda like giving thanks to them for doing everything for me to help raise me and everything like that.

Q) So which branch of the military did you decide to join?

I decided to join the Air Force. Overall, everyone including myself said that going to the Air Force would be the best decision for me. And honestly i haven't heard too much of bad things about the Air Force, but i figured they have what I want most of all in the long run and that is: A good paying job, a positive lifetime experience, helps me out in the long run, a good reputation as a military branch, and family support. Plus i think it's a good fit for me and a decision i feel in my heart is the right branch to join. Don't get me wrong, i listened to the other branches, and almost got swepped up in joining the marines which would've been the worst decision of my lifetime, but im glad my heart was happy with the Air Force.

Q) You mentioned your parents, are they supportive of your decision?

Yeah they are. At first they were a little skeptical about why i wanted to join the military all of a sudden (mainly school reasons) but after talking to them and having many discussions with them and other family members, they love the idea and support it all the way, and it makes me happy that they do support my decision, it puts a good feeling in my soul to have them support everything i do.

Q) Aren't you nervous about basic training?

Honestly, i'm still a little nervous even to this day, because it's something huge in my life. I'll be gone for 8.5 weeks in Texas, somewhere i haven't been before, on my own, with other people joining the Air Force as well. This isn't like some band camp where your gone for a week and come back, this is pretty much 8.5 weeks of doing something on your own and coming out an Airmen, full of confidence, and a totally changed person.

Q) Are you gonna be ready for BMT (Basic Military Training)?

If we are talking about physically,  I should be. By the time my ship out date rolls around, I should be physically fit enough to handle basic training. I'll work out more often than i ever have just to make sure im in tip-top shape so I'm not struggling to do the running, push-ups,sit-ups, and other things they ask me to do.

If we are talking mentally, i'd say im ready for BMT. Honestly, i'm just more excited and anxious than anything to go to basic training.

Q) How long are you under contract?

4 years.

Q) Are you still gonna keep in contact with family, friends and loved ones while your in the Air Force?

Of course i will, i wouldn't see why i wouldn't. Plus i got too many people worrying about me to not try to communicate with them back home. I might even convince some of my friends to join the Armed Forces if they are thinking about doing it.

Q) Are you excited to meet new people and make new friends?

Definitely, and these aren't just regular kinds of people. These are friends that you can have for a lifetime for the next 4, 10, 20 years or so, all serving the same country, and some are serving for the same reasons that I'd be serving, so it makes it even more fun and exciting to meet them.

Q) What are you gonna miss the most by being in the Air Force?


In three words: home,family,friends. but you could ask any person in the military person that, and im pretty sure a good 90% would give you that answer.. that or home cooking, and nothing can replace home cooking.

Q) One last question, would you say your overall satisfied with your decision to join the Air Force and are you going to stay for life?


Honestly, i would say im pretty satisfied in my decision to join the Air Force. To answer the second question it depends on what happens in my life by the time my 4 years are up. A lot can happen in 4 years, so if i feel like i need to stay, then i'll stay. I'll just do what's in my best interest and what's best for me overall, so right now i'm not going to say im going to stay or leave, i'll leave you with a "we'll see what happens down the road because im not really worried about it" kind of answer.

If you have any other questions you'd like to know, feel free to leave a comment and i'll try to answer it.

Part 2 will come out around my ship out date when I have to leave for basic training so stay tuned for that blog.

Realest Words and Truth 1: Females

*DISCLAIMER* These opinions are not only mine, but other guys shared their views and opinions as well.



Females O Females, ones that we can't live em and can't live without em. Sometimes they'll be the best thing that'll happen to you and other times they'll be the ones that can cause the most damage emotionally. So here's the way i and some other guys look at females..opinions, experiences, all that good stuff.

• I dont understand why females do some of the things they do. 

• why they blame all of the bad things on us good guys, when they know they are the main cause for their own problems.

• why they choose to screw the good guys out for the wrong type of guys, then come back to the good guy that's been there for them and repeat the same process, and keep hurting the good guy until the guy is fed up with her and moves on, leaving the girl that played him unhappy and alone with the wrong type of guy.
• why i put up with those types of females at all
• why another girl claims they are better than the previous girl, and turns out that they are the same exact type of girl.
• why most of these girls operate off one brain cell when it comes to guys.
• why most of these girls come up with so many excuses and can't be real and straight up.

Honestly, I dont have the answers to those questions myself, and if i did i would answer them for all guys, but im just as confused as other guys who think the same way i think. So let's break this down from my point of view.

Recently, i, myself have started categorizing the girls i have come across in my lifetime. I'll give a rating from 1-10 with 10 being that i run into these type of girls all the time.

• Bullshitters and floppers- these are the chicks that will make come up with every excuse in the book to not see you or plan things with you. Even when plans are set in stone, they back out at the last second because of "something that comes up". The funny thing about these chicks is that they'll be the ones that want you to keep babying them and give them lots of attention. Rating: 7.5/10. I do run into these types of chicks often, but it's gotten to the point to where it's ridiculous.But i know how to avoid these girls. 
• One brain celled females- these are the chicks that blame nearly all their problems on men and take no responsibility for their own problems. Their main catchphrase "why are all guys..blah blah blah" or "all guys are stupid because blah blah blah" or even "I'm through with guys blah blah blah". The first thing i say to these chicks is the only reason you say these things is because your dumass chooses the wrong type of guys because your going by what you THINK you want instead of what you REALLY need in a guy (hence the one brain celled title). And the reason why you chicks are lonely as hell is because i'll bet you ANYTHING that there was a good guy in your life that cares for you, that actually gave a flying fuck when nobody else did, who picked you up when nobody else could, but instead you chose the wrong type of guy and left the guy who was there for you hanging out to dry. These chicks deserve a brown paper bag of shame.. Rating 5/10. Even though i don't run into these chicks personally, i have heard stories or seen facebook statuses saying these types of things. Here's hoping that you find the rest of the brain cells to make the right decisions in life.
• Flapjackers- these type of chicks are the sneaky ones. these would be consider the "pimp" type for females. It is amazing how they play the "game". It's like they are chameleons, can change depending on how the environment they are in. They could look at you with the straight face and tell you one thing, and as soon as your not looking, run to another man and tell him the same thing, and maybe twist some words around. Their flaw is that they don't take into account the fact that us guys have a sort of network, just like you females have a network when you talk about us. we KNOW what kind of girl you are and what you do (even though some of us wanna prove our friends wrong and it ends up backfiring). Even still, I am impressed how they can live with themselves knowing they do all these things. Now to clairfy, most of you will think these are hoes which is pretty accurate, but i'd say these are more of low key, underground hoes rather than your typical average hoe. Rating: 2/10. I don't run into these types of girls and if i do, it's probably a couple of em every blue moon. Either that or i just don't even give attention to these types of girls.
• Seducers- pretty self explanatory, they have a killer body, good looks, a sexy voice to match. I believe it's a mind game against these types of girls, one false move and their playing you like puppets on a string. they go along with flapjackers but on a different type of level. meaning, they will kiss and never tell or basically a home wrecker or friendship sabotage. Rating: 1/10. I rarely come across these girls at all and if I did, I would've spotted you a mile away and stayed away from you.
• The Moody- these are the chicks that i really don't like. these are the chicks that NEED to be babied and cared for 24/7. One wrong word or a mistake and they are all depressed or upset or angry as hell. I honestly believe they have some kind of mental problem..but then again im just making wild guesses here. Rating: 3.5/10. No explanation really needed, just dont care about them.
• The Relentless- these are chicks that i have to sit back and applaud the effort they give to get me. They know what they want, and will try literally anything to get me..even bad things like sabotage a relationship to get to me. their problem is that they are on a one track mind, and if something goes wrong in their "plans", they usually screw up big time and say the wrong thing and start annoying the living fuck out of me trying to "fix" the problem that they created. But despite all this, these are the chicks that are willing to fight a chick if i got a problem with them, so i know they have my back. Rating: 8/10. Run into these chicks a good deal of the time..hard to shake them off once they start going.

But not all females are bad, some of them are good. The good ones are unfortunately are most likely either taken or i haven't found them yet. It's sad to see that the bad ones really overshadow the good ones and nobody ever gives credit to the good girls when they need it the most. I'll break those kinds of girls down.

• Winners- these are the chicks that have the complete package. Brains, beauty, and personality. these chicks are the ones that are like the "ride or die" chicks that always got your back no matter what the situation. They'll talk to you even at 4 in the morning when you're feeling down. They'll visit you and take care of you when your sick. They might not be completely perfect and they have their faults, but they come close to perfect as your gonna get. Once you have a winner, i wouldnt suggest losing them or messing up with them because you never know when you'll get another girl like them. These are the type of chicks that I look for whenever i talk to a girl, but they are super hard to find if near impossible. I know that there are some out there, just haven't met them yet. They are honest, and know what they are doing in life, or at least have a good idea of what they want to do. We need more winners in this world, but like i said before they are hard to find.

So here's my theory. If your a female and question yourself on whether you are a winner or not, most likely you're not. You have to know for yourself that you are a winner and have that mentality all the time. If you don't think it, who's gonna think it for you?  Are there more winners out there or are all of them taken? And are there answers to the questions from the beginning? I guess I'll find out for myself as long as im here on this Earth. In the meantime, I got to focus on me and what i wanna accomplish in life.

Got answers to these questions? Or Know of another category? Leave your comments below. Or inbox me if you have my Facebook.